Nomonde Calatas tears as she testified in court last month about her husbands assassination 40 years ago echoed the raw anguish heard during South Africas Truth and Reconciliation Commission hearings after apartheid ended in 1994.
From 1996 to 1998, the TRC heard harrowing accounts of murders, torture and other apartheid-era abuses from hundreds of victims and some perpetrators, aiming to expose the horrors and begin healing.
Internationally hailed as a model in reconciliation, 30 years later its reputation is tarnished at home, where critics say the exercise allowed some to get away with their crimes.
Calata was one of the first to appear at a hearing. In her mid-thirties, she told of the 1985 assassinations by police of her husband and other anti-apartheid activists known as the Cradock Four, one of the eras most notorious cases.
She recounted the story again this year in June at a new inquest, still seeking justice and closure, this time supported by lawyers from the Unfinished Business of the TRC programme of the Foundation for Human Rights FHR, a non-profit organisation.